O God, you saw mankind fallen into death
and sent your only-begotten Son for its redemption.
We humbly and devotedly proclaim his incarnation:
grant that we may deserve to be companions of our Redeemer.
We humbly and devotedly proclaim his incarnation:
grant that we may deserve to be companions of our Redeemer.
Over 5 years ago I dropped into a black hole – four months of absolute terror. I wanted to end my life. Fortunately I reached out to a friend who took me to hospital. I had three visits - hospital - in four months – I imagined I was in hell.
ReplyDeleteI think I was going through some sort of metamorphosis - mental, physical & spiritual. I had been seeing a therapist since 1994 up until then... My fear was that would be locked away – but the hospital staffs were very supportive. I didn't seem to have any control over my process. I was released from hospital 16th September 2004, but my fear had only subsided a little.
I remember this particular morning waking up [home] & my process would start up again - feeling fear, pain & shame. There didn't seem to be any relief in sight. Not even my therapist could help me. I was terrified. I got down on my knees and asked Jesus Christ to have mercy on me & forgive me my sins. Slowly, all my fear has dissipated & I believe Jesus delivered me from my “psychological prison.”
I am a practicing Catholic & the Holy Spirit is my friend & strength; every day since then has been a joy & blessing. I deserve to go to hell for the life I have led, but Jesus through His sacrifice on the cross, delivered me from my inequities. John 3: 8, John 15: 26 are verses I can relate to, organically.
He's - Holy Spirit - a real person who is with me all the time. I have so much joy & peace in my life to day - after a childhood spent in orphanages. God loves me so much. Fear, pain & guilt are no longer my constant companions.
God bless you
Michael Gormley
Dearest Michael,
ReplyDeleteYou have a wonderful testimony of grace. It blessed me very much. There is such joy in the Sacramental life. He is our food for the journey, isn't He!
I'm glad you took the time during this very busy time of year to pause and share your joy with me. You will be in my Christmas Eve prayers at Midnight Mass.
May the Incarnate Word of God, so humbly given to us, continue to guide us both in this journey of grace.
Blessed Advent - and Merry Christmas!