O my God, Thou knowest I have never desired but to love Thee alone. I seek no other glory. Thy Love has gone before me from my childhood, it has grown with my growth, and now it is an abyss the depths of which I cannot fathom. -St. Therese
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Our Number One Blog Post
We greeted each other in the narthex at church today. As it so often does, our conversation turned to the Faith.
Margaret told me she had never thought of faith as a kind of journey - until she met me. Her life as a cradle Catholic was steady. Unquestioned. Loved. Still, it simply was. More like a state of being rather than a journey.
But she said it's different now. She senses that her faith has always been a journey, even though that journey has been taking place on a level just below her consciousness.
And then we touched on music - another metaphor for this life of grace. Margaret's song - her life - has been a lovely piece of music, soft and beautiful, mostly pianissimo, with steady 4/4 time.
My journey started out as a simple song. Like Twinkle, Twinkle. As for substance, mostly just the bare minimum theology which the Protestant Reformation retained from its Catholic roots.
But then, a dissonance interrupted everything, and all I wanted was some resolution. I wanted desperately to stop those notes that didn't seem to go together. I wanted my simple Twinkle, Twinkle once again. Instead, the music was loud and demanded my attention and cried out for chords that worked together.
And then it came. The understanding and knowledge. Those beautiful gifts of the Holy Spirit. Right judgment. Awe. Reverence.
A complicated arrangement replaced the cacophony, and - for the first time - I experienced advanced dynamics that pulled at the soul and carried her higher. The music of faith transitioned into a movement of exquisite sweetness, made all the sweeter because it followed the dark dissonance.
The Resolution. The Climax. The moment when grace sings the melody and all instruments highlight her voice.
Faith is a journey. Grace is a song.
Whether we realize it or not.
He who sings prays twice...
He who sings prays twice...
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Washing Machine Troubles
And then, the washing machine leaked water. Twenty-bathroom-towels-worth-of-water.
I don't think I handled it perfectly, but I'm getting better at this offer-it-up thing. So I said a prayer: Lord, help somebody today who is struggling with sin and wants to be clean all over again... but they are trying all kinds of broken-fixes. Help them to turn to you through the Sacrament of Confession.
As for me? The repair guy has come and gone. I'm still testing the machine to see if it is water-tight. I'm praying for that too - and for the grace to accept the "budget setback" if we have to buy a new machine. Lord, hear my prayers.
Washing Machine Troubles
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
From EVANGELII NUNTIANDI-- on New Evangelization
-EVANGELII NUNTIANDI
How can I share this ancient & beautiful Catholic Faith? With love, zeal and joy!
From EVANGELII NUNTIANDI-- on New Evangelization
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Intercessions for "Deep in History" Conference
Intercessions for "Deep in History" Conference
Love Note to Self #11
(From the “Litany of the Most Holy Name of Jesus” by St. John Capistrano and by St. Bernadine of Siena)
Love Note to Self #11
A Lesson from the Stars
A Lesson from the Stars
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Archbishop Burke - among the number of new Cardinals!
Archbishop Burke - among the number of new Cardinals!
Love Note to Self #10
-St. Paul of the Cross
(It's his feast day today!)
Love Note to Self #10
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
New Cardinals to be Announced Tomorrow
New Cardinals to be Announced Tomorrow
Love Note to Self #9
Love Note to Self #9
Friday, October 15, 2010
More Than a Coincidence!
More Than a Coincidence!
Sunday, October 10, 2010
10-10-10 A Quote from Pope Benedict XVI
10-10-10 A Quote from Pope Benedict XVI
Friday, October 8, 2010
Writing 101 for Christian Writers
I have.
When I was twenty, I started writing. That was the year my father told me that he'd heard somewhere that each one of us has a bestseller inside of us, but most people never take the time to write it down & capture it on paper.
In that moment, I vowed that I would not be like everyone else. I would take the time to write down my ideas. I would write as many books as it took to get my bestseller written.
I wrote five or six books. I wrote and wrote and mailed manuscripts to publishers and waited and the rejections came and I tried again.
And then, I gave up.
It all seemed like such a waste of time and effort. So much for a B.A. and M.A. in English. If I wanted to use those degrees, it would be as a writing teacher - not as a writer. And so, I encouraged my students to become writers. I was convinced that I would never live that dream for myself.
For those of you who know my story, you know that I converted to the Catholic Church after my father became ill and passed away. During his illness, I began writing my thoughts in a journal. Eighteen months later, I picked up that journal and wondered.
It was all there, captured in the pages of spiral notebooks. My journey from Protestant preacher's kid to Roman Catholic neophyte.
And I put together a small article and sent it to the local diocesan paper. They published it. That was over five years ago.
Recently, I scanned the list of papers that have run my little conversion articles and once again, I wondered.
And I decided that I could try one more time. Maybe there was a book inside of me. Maybe the story just hadn't unfolded enough when I was in my 20s or 30s. Maybe the story I was meant to write wasn't fiction. Maybe it was my story.
I sent some sample chapters to a publisher recently. They took a look at them and invited me to send the entire manuscript. I did.
And now, I'm waiting. I'm waiting upon the Lord.
This time is different, though. This time, I have given it to the Lord. Yes, it is possible to offer up everything, even a dream.
Sometime in the next few weeks or months, the manuscript will be accepted or rejected. I will let you know what happens. But the giving has already occurred - and so has the acceptance. Every gift, every work, every effort and dream and hope can be laid at the feet of Jesus. Nothing is wasted in this Kingdom. He receives it all.
Not even the-manuscript-that-never-gets-published is wasted. Not even if its final resting place is the bottom of a cedar chest.
What is your gift? Have you been holding it close to your breast, afraid of rejection? Give it to the Lord Jesus Christ, for He renders all things good - even when the answer is no thanks from everyone else.
Writing 101 for Christian Writers
Thursday, October 7, 2010
It's the Feast of Our Lady of the Holy Rosary
David had five little stones. You have five little decades. Go ahead, bring down the Goliath in your world! |
It's the Feast of Our Lady of the Holy Rosary
Love Note to Self #8
Let us be rooted and grounded in charity so that with all the saints we may be able to comprehend what is the length of eternity, the breadth of liberality, the height of majesty, and the depth of discerning wisdom. -St. Bonaventure
Love Note to Self #8
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Love Note to Self #7
Lord, in my zeal for the love of truth, let me not forget the truth about love.-St. Thomas Aquinas
Love Note to Self #7
Love Note to Self #6
What we need most in order to make progress is to be silent before this great God with our appetite and with our tongue, for the language he best hears is silent love. - St. John of the Cross
Love Note to Self #6
Love Note to Self #5
We cannot be sure whether we are loving God, although we may have good reasons for believing that we are. But we can know quite well whether we are loving our neighbor. -St. Teresa of Avila
Love Note to Self #5
Monday, October 4, 2010
Catholics, Don't Be Afraid to Stand Your Ground
Oh, it's not that he lacks hospitality. It's more like he has permitted the visiting dogs to take over the place. They yip and he dodges out of the room. They charge at him, and he backs away from the food bowl. The labradoodle is around 60 pounds. Together, the toy poodles can't weigh more than 10 pounds - tops.
I want to tell Max to stand tall. Don't let them chase you away from your own food bowl or frighten you away from your place at my feet. You belong here. You were here first. This is your home, Max! You don't have to act all superior around them, but you could act like this is your home. Stop being a wimp.
Too many Catholics have the Max Syndrome.
When proselytizing Protestant Christians come around, some Catholics run for the hills. They become intimidated. They are suddenly unsure of themselves, afraid they can't defend the Catholic faith sufficiently, and so they hide in the shadows and let the Evangelicals take over the place.
Sometimes, I wonder if Jesus feels like telling some wimpy Catholics to stand tall. Don't let them chase you off. Don't let them frighten you away from your place at my feet. You belong here! This is your home. You don't have to act all superior around them, but you could act like you belong here. Because you do.
Catholics, Don't Be Afraid to Stand Your Ground
Love Note to Self #4
Love Note to Self #4
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Total Depravity - just not biblical
But the one topic that did come up - the one we do disagree on is the topic of total depravity. We (Catholics) simply do not believe that humanity is totally hopeless.
We are not worms. (Okay, so the Psalmist calls himself a worm in chapter 22, verse 6, but that is because he is despised by others. This passage, by the way, has long been considered a prophetic passage, describing Our Lord's Passion. Read from the beginning of the chapter and you'll have to agree. And Jesus Christ certainly is no worm. And neither are we. Those who are in Christ are a new creation. Precious in the eyes of the Lord.)
So what are we if we are not worthless, hopeless worms?
"We are his handiwork, created in Christ Jesus for the good works that God has prepared in advance, that we should live in them" (Ephesians 2)
So, we are not totally depraved, and our best efforts are not "nothing". We are something. We are hope-filled. Redemption and restoration are possible.
In short, we can become holy.
Sure, we are pretty wretched without God. Before we enter this life of grace, we are rather pathetic. But we are worth redeeming. That's how God sees us. The Protestant idea of "total depravity" simply isn't Biblical. You don't command something that is totally depraved to become holy. Why? Because it can never do it.
"Total Depravity" is inconsistent with Christ's command: be holy as I am holy.
Jesus Christ has not only made it possible for us to become holy, but he has told us that it is necessary for salvation. We must become holy.
There is, however, a necessary thing. On our own, we cannot become holy. It all comes down to grace. God's grace.
Oh, yeah, and one more thing. When grace shows up, say "Yes" to it. Grace & freewill. Another both/and.
Thomas Aquinas declared that special grace is necessary for man to do any supernaturally good act, to love God, to fulfill God's commandments, to gain eternal life, to prepare for salvation, to rise from sin, to avoid sin, and to persevere.[Summa Theologiae (hereafter ST) I:II:109:2-10].
Total Depravity - just not biblical